ipagpatawad mo...

emolonelyme

Im drunk again for the nth time. I have to. Ok naman ako nun isang araw, ewan ko ba at eto na naman ako. Mukhang masaya naman siya... anu pa kaya silbi ko?

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Puro naman relasyon usapan sa inuman. Usapang break ups at annulment ng kasal. Wala naman ako ma-share kasi wala naman ako maadvice. Sarili ko nga di ko matulungan eh. Naisip ko, dapat ang marriage contract may expiration date, yung parang passport lang. Pag expired na, let's say after 5-10 years, renew mo na lang kung ok pa. Pero kung tipong nagbubugbugan na kayo o burat na burat ka na sa mukha ng partner mo, eh di hayaan mo na maexpire. Renewal of vows kung baga. Agree naman silang lahat.

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Hmmm... hindi sila natulog/nakatulog. Malamang busy...

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Di rin ako makatulog, gutom ako. Ayoko kumain.

I lurrrrrvvvv Charice:)

Hindi ko talaga type mga christmas songs, pero dahil kay Charice, nagustuhan ko na (yun kanta lang nya). Jingle Bell Rock lang kinanta sus paulit-ulit ko pa pinakinggan. Tapos nakakaiyak yun Grown-up Christmas List huhu kaya ayoko ng pasko eh.

Eh kung ako kaya ang nanalo sa LOTTO ng P741 million?

Bigla lang pumasok sa kokote ko habang patanga-tanga ako sa bahay, eh panu kung ako ang nanalo ng Php741,176,323.20 lotto prize, ano kaya ang gagawin ko? Masarap isipin kaso baka masiraan ako ng ulo kung panu ko icclaim yung prize. Mapapraning siguro ako kung panu ko ilalagay sa banko yung pera.

Parang instant noodle lang. Instant millionaire. Panu ko uubusin yun? San ko ilalagay? Anu una kong bibilin? Sino bibigyan ko? Magreresign ba ko agad sa trabaho o part-time na lang? Weh, panu ko kaya isisikreto yun? San ako magtatago? Baka buong araw ako nangangatog na feeling ko anytime pwede ako holdapin o kidnapin.

Pero eto mga naisip ko gawin sa pera:

1. Pasalamat kay Lord. Ibibigay ko 20% sa chosen charity ko. Cguro donate dun sa church ng ermats ko tsaka sa mga cancer patients, tapos sa PAWS.

2. Bibili ako ng bahay at lupa, fully furnished. Tatlong bahay sa Ayala Southvale para sa magulang ko, ate ko at sakin. Dream house ko. Sama-sama kami sa isang village. Bibili rin ako ng isang unit sa Serendra. Magpapatayo ako ng resthouse sa Boracay at sa Tagaytay. Bibigyan ko ng tig-iisang bahay yung siyam na kapatid ng ermats ko at yung dalawang kapatid ng erpats ko.

3. Bibili ako ng kotse. Isang Volvo (yun sa Twilight) para sa ate ko. Smart car and BMW para sa magulang ko. Yellow Mini Cooper at Hummer para sakin:)

4. Magfranchise ako ng 711, Starbucks at Petron. Di naman cguro kelangan ako pa mag manage. I'll hire my friends to manage those. Si Chat accountant ko. Di kasi malulusutan sa pera yun at mapagkakatiwalaan pa.

5. Bibili ako ng mga lote at papatayuan ko ng apartments para papa-rent ko. Magtatayo ako ng sampung apartments sa QC, sampu sa Makati, sampu sa Manila. Yung sa QC ibibigay ko sa kamag-anak para may business sila ng kanya-kanya.

6. Bibili pa ako ng isa pang malaking lote para matupad ng ermats ko yung pangarap nyang Farmville. Dun magtatrabaho yung mga alagain ng erpats ko. 

7. Bibili ako ng insurance. Kung anu man ang kelangan iinsure.

8. Magiinvest ako sa stocks.

9. Bibili ako ng latest electronic gadgets at magshoshopping ako to the max.

10. Magaaral ako. Gusto ko matuto ng ibang language. German and Chinese Mandarin. Tapos magaaral ako yung medyo related sa art. Magmamasteral din ako (advertising or business ad).

11. Magreregalo ako sa taong special sakin. Yung malupet na regalo. 

12. Magpapatayo ako ng animal care center. Yung pwede mag-ampon ng aso.

13. Travel. Gusto ko makapunta sa Germany, Japan, France, S. Korea, Greece.

14. Bibili ako ng pet. Yun pinangarap ko nun bata ako bukod sa aso - Tiger tsaka iguana/chameleon.

15. Magpapa-party ako!

Adieu

Hindi ako nakatulog kagabi.

Nangapitbahay ako kahapon sa tapat. Usapan kasi namin ni Alen, childhood friend ko, magkikita kami eh. Ayusin namin damit ko sa kasal nya. Unexpected yung pagiging abay ko sa kasal nya. Tagal na namin di nagkikita eh. Ayun, kwentuhan lang. 1month na siyang buntis pero parang 4months na yun tyan nya. Dami pwede pagkwentuhan ewan ko ba kung bat kelangan isingit sa kwento yun 1st bf ko. 

Tinanung nya kung ilang yrs daw naging kami. Almost 6yrs ata yun na hindi ko maiwan. Eh kasi naman suicidal. Kaya nagkaleche leche buhay ko eh. Lahat na ng klaseng panloloko ginawa ko na ata para lang layuan na nya ko pero tibay parin. 

Sabi ni Alen naalala nya na lagi sya sinusundo nun sa bahay para mapuntahan ako kasi lagi nakabantay erpat ko. Tapos nakatayo lang siya tapat ng bhay namin sa may halaman nila alen kasi madilim hindi sya makikita ng erpat ko. Minsan nagugulat na lang ako andun lang pala sya sa labas ng bhay namin inaabangan ako lumabas. 

Ilang beses ako nagtry makipagbreak pero parang walang pakiramdam. Sinapak ko na nga nguso nya sa harap ni Crystal n Ambray kasi inabangan nya ko sa kanto para lang sermunan kasi lasing ako. Dakdak ng dakdak sa kalsada. Pinadugo ko tuloy nguso nya. Inuntog ko na rin ulo nya sa salamin ng isang stall sa sm kasi kakaselos nya. Tinulak ko na rin sya sa kalsada para masagasaan pero ewan ko nakakailag pa rin.

Naalala ko tinago ko sya sa cabinet sa kusina namin ng limang oras kasi biglang dumating ate ko. Paglabas nya puro kagat sya ng ipis. 

Minsan nagugulat na lang ako kkwento sakin ni Ghia n Debz na nilapitan sila ng bf ko sa mall hinahanap ako. Eh hindi naman sila magkakilala. Minsan biglang susulpot sa labas ng school ko, Seton n Dasma, susunduin ako. Eh may bf na tlga akong iba sa dasma eh! Hanggang nun nagttrabaho ako sa Vocativ biglang inabangan ako sa overpass ng Makati nun pauwi ako. ewan ko kung panu nya nlaman na dun ako nagttrabaho. Hanggang sa natatakot na ko sa kanya...

Pag nakikipagbreak ako sasaktan nya sarili nya. Uuntog nya ulo nya sa pader. One time nagaway kami, kumuha sya ng kutsilyo magpapakamatay daw siya. Inagaw ko yung kutsilyo sa kanya kasi parang gusto ko ako na sumaksak sa kanya. Binato ko sakanya yung kutsilyo. Hinagisan ko pa sya ng bato. Naging brutal na ata ako pero feeling ko tama lang yung mga ginawa ko.

Lagi nya sinasabi na pag iniwan ko sya hindi na sya maghahanap ng iba. Lumipat na ng bahay yung family nya pero nagpaiwan pa rin siya. Nakitira siya sa barkada nya para lang malapit pa rin siya sakin.

Parang obsessed na ata ampucha. Naging stalker pa. 

One time, sinamahan ko mag groceries ermats ko sa sm molino. Nagikot ako magisa sa mall biglang may kumalabit sakin. Pag lingon ko siya! Amf! Hindi ko alam kung matatakot ako or what pero kinabahan ako. Tapos tinanung nya kung may bf nako. Sabi ko may asawa at tatlong anak na ko!

Yun na yung last time na nakita ko sya. 

Mabalik kay Alen. Tinawag nya lola nya. Sabi nya "La, diba wala na si Aj?" Sumagot lola nya ng oo patay na. Sagot ko "buti na yun, Aling Miring. Masaya na sya dun" Pero putangina!!!! Kinilabutan ako bigla! **Goosebumps** Bumalik lahat ng memories. Hindi ako nalungkot, hindi rin naman ako natuwa.  Wala na akong pakiramdam. Wala rin naman kasi akong masasabi sa kanya. Mabait naman siya ika nga ni Alen. Never naman nya ko sinaktan. Lagi nya sinusunod lahat ng gusto ko. Pero ibang level na. Pero kinilabutan talaga ko. Kala ko nagpakamatay na o nasagasaan pero sabi ng lola at stepmom ni Alen nagkasakit. Anung sakit kaya? Ayoko na alamin. Parang inadd pa nya ko sa fb several months ago eh pero walang pic. Tapos dedbol na pala sya. Pakkk.

Parang may konting guilt akong naramdaman. Feeling ko baka kasalanan ko at nagkaganun siya. Baka kasalanan ko nga huhu. Naku.

Tangina hindi talaga ko nakatulog kagabi at buong gabi bukas ilaw ko. Natatakot ako. Baka abangan pa ko sa labas ng bahay nun pucha wag naman please. Naiimagine ko parang horror movie na suspense yun tipong may hawak na chainsaw tapos i know what you did last summer.

Pero seryoso, sana matahimik na sya Lord.

Babay ulit NU107 ='(

Aga aga ko naman naging emotional kanina. Gaganda kasi ng tugtog sa NU nun madaling araw parang pinatugtog talaga lahat para sakin.



*Goosebumps*


Makatindig balahibong kanta -- El Bimbo


Naiyak ako dito

I Want

Clinique Happy

D&G light blue- paubos na eh

Kenneth Cole Black


Rayban shades
Netbook/Ipad
Bag

omigosh!

I saw my dream house in Sentosa Singapore while I was looking for a cheap package online.
My sister is giving us free package as her xmas gift. We're suppose to go there on Dec16-18 kaso expired na passport ko. So siguro saka na lang pag sure na yung passport. Wish ko lang makita ko yung dream house ko kung makapunta man.

NU Rock to NU Pop. Pakkk!

Confirmed na nga mawawala na NU107 huhu. So so sooo saaadddd! Konti na nga lang matinong radio station tapos mawawala pa. Everyday yun ang radio station ko tuwing nagddrive ako. Malamang uulan na ng kakornihan for life! Juskolord, kelangan pa ba imemorize yan? 

Time to look for another good radio station :(

26

Isang kabaliwan. Eto nanaman siyaaaa. Parating nanaman ang special date na toh. Well, sakin lang naman special to, sa iba wala parang ordinary days lang. Ayun.

I used to write all of his texts in a notebook. Naging addiction ata yun sakin. Ultimo simpleng quote or isang word lang yun text niya or a smiley face sinusulat ko pa rin including date and time. Pag magkagalit kami or gusto ko kiligin or emo ako binabasa ko lang siya paulit-ulit tapos ok na ulit ako. Siguro may dahilan yun. Memories. Unfortunately hanggang dun na lang. Sabi nga niya "good times never last".

Ang  hirap pala mag move on. Akala ko dati naka move on na ko pero hindi pa pala. It's been five fuckin years pero nagseselos pa rin ako. Minsan naiisip ko siguro may nilagay siya na gayuma sa pinapadeliver namin na Jollibee, or sa yosi na hinihingi ko sa kanya dati or sa french fries na binili nya sa labas ng bahay nila. Baka meron nga. Laway.

Now, there's only one thing I can do--cherish those great memories. Memories sa Jollibee (palaboy night at di ako makauwi), Octoberfest sa SM (I realized na laging andyan si Jollibee tuwing kailangan), breakfast sa Mcdo, Starbucks (Shang Makati when I gave him wallet and we talked about his dad), Starbucks sa Glorietta, sa Town, Festi, dinner with Jovy sa Gerry's, TGIF, CPK, KFC, Kenny, Tokyo2, kainan sa Singgalong, magubos ng oras sa U with his Bosco friends, double date sa Baywalk, dinner sa Gilligans on the day na nagkaron ng ayala bus bombing on valentine's day.

I remember we even watched The Grudge and I thought he was sweet. We laughed when we found out na sinagot ni Bianx si Allen on Nov1. Kinilig ako when he gave me flowers nun nasa Canyonwoods. We enjoyed    Fete de la Musique kahit magkagalit at nagpapakiramdaman kami. I watched his basketball game kahit puyat at walang tulog.

I miss walking with him sa Makati and wait for a taxi. I miss riding bus with him. Miss ko rin yung halos maubos oras namin kakaisip kung san kakain and who's gonna decide where.

We used to talk over the phone almost every minute. Nagrereview siya sa madaling araw at nagtatrabaho naman ako at the same time magkausap kami sa phone.. Magkausap kami hanggang makatulog na. Thanks to Sun at may unli calls kahit 15minutes na putol-putol.

I miss those times na nakahiga lang kami sa kama, madilim, and we talked about our dreams. Sabi niya mangangarap na lang din naman eh lubus-lubusin na.

Ayun, memories. Siyeeet. Minsan ok kami, madalas hindi. Basta alam ko masaya ako nun nakilala ko siya. Nakakasira ng ulo. Kelangan ko ata mauntog ng malupetttt para makalimot. He wants me out of his life eh. Kaya niya eh. Buti pa siya. 

Nalorkey na ata talaga ko sa kanya. Pero sabi nila nagagamot naman daw to. Malapit na siguro ako gumaling:) Sana.

Waiting but hopefully not in vain

Hindi lang naman cguro sya. All of us spend most of our time waiting: waiting for class dismissal, waiting for food to be served, waiting for shift to end, waiting for a bus to arrive, waiting for someone's text, waiting for the right opportunity, waiting for someone you love, etc. Nakakainip pero there's always a right time for everything. 

And I'm just waiting for that right time, but for some reason, that right time might not come cuz he's losing hope. Well karapatan nya mawalan ng pagasa and what the heck, hindi ko matanggap. I know I'm asking too much.  

Blame me for wasting his time, but my time was much wasted not being with him. Nakakasira ng ulo.

There's nothing worse than knowing who you want but wasting time with somebody and still wanting someone you know you can no longer have.

Fingers crossed I know God has a perfect timing for his plans for us.

For the mean time, life goes on.

Sana hindi ako paiyakin ni Lord. 

And please Bob Marley, wag mo ko kantahan.

1on1

Bilang lang ang taong nagpapaiyak sakin. Dumagdag na sa listahan si Chan. Ewan ko ba at masyadong seryoso usapan namin kanina. We talked about stories in the bible kanina and how humans lived to a great old age just like Methuselah who lived for 969 years. We talked about religions. Sabi ko kasi parents ko christian na just like him tapos ako catholic parin pero minsan umaattend ako sa mass nila kasi gusto ko yung sinasabi ng pastor. He told me na si maica iba rin religion. Mormon. Meron pala talagang ganun. Pwede naman pala magkaiba ang religion ng magasawa..stig. 

New topic. Anyway, lagi nya ko binibiro na hindi kami bagay. Malaki sya, maliit ako, mabait sya, pasaway ako. Naoover power ko daw siya lagi. Sabi nya madalas daw pag bf gf nagiging magkamukha daw pag tumatagal. Pero malabo daw yun samin. kasi nga hindi daw ako bagay sa kanya. Sabi ko marami na nagsabi nyan.

Hanggang sa napunta na usapan na mahina ako. Emotional talaga ko pagdating dun eh. Bihira lang naman ako magkwento at piling tao lang nakakaalam nun. Basta sabi lang niya na ngayon lang daw nya ko naintindihan. Pero i should still try to follow my heart daw kasi yun lang din daw ang makakalaban ko pag tumagal. Naiyak ako. Walang tissue. May call na pumasok. Umiyak na lang ako.

Don't point that finger, yo!

Awww snap! My message wasnt even meant for you. It was for someone in the office who THEY call "panget or hipon". Why do you have to react like that?

bz

Kelangan ko maging busy, kasing busy nya. Ayoko naman na xa lang, dapat ako din. Kaso kahit anung busy ko mas busy pa rin xa eh nyahaha. Busy-busihan lang siguro ako, kunwari busy, pero hindi busy, pero talaga naman busy eh. Talo lang ako kasi kahit busy ako, may makita lang akong bagay, may naaalala na agad ako. Lugi kasi sentimental lahat ng bagay sakin, sa kanya hindi..nyahaha.

Tama na ako...

it's not supposed to hurt this way....

...like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

My Place

yessss nelly. i was listenin to it while driving home kanina. nalala ko bigla malate bitch days ko harhar. every sat andun ako. minsan kahit thurs fri andun ako. minsan with jovy n lele, minsan ako lang. tapos kasama ko kung sinu-sino. pati strip dancers sa padi's friends na rin namin. inuman sa kalsada, sa memorable stairs right beside padi's tapos meron na pipick-up sa kanila.

siyempre gusto ko kasama si al kasi libre entrance namin lagi kahit san kami pumasok. naging kami pa nun pero 1day lang. type niya talaga si lele. turn off, bulol siya:)

si pot pinakagentleman and seloso ever. sinusundo pa ko nun, tambay sa bahay nila. meet the parents. never naman siya nagtake advantage at never naging kami kasi ayoko lang. may kulang sa kanya hindi ko lang alam kung ano.

tapos uuwi ako sa bahay ni lele sa don galo. kakain sa maty's. kakain ng tapang kabayo:) deretso etibak ng walang tulog.

Idaan sa SOUNDTRIP ang pagkaBADTRIP. Isa kang TAPA! Taong Paasa!!!

Ewan ko kung bakit ko to nagustuhan. Basta gusto ko lang. Epic song.

"your so effin special, i wish i was special...but im a creep... im a wierdo..

Creep: meaning of something like loser, or not good enough for someone you love...
being wierd, and strange.

Ikaw ba yun o ako? Cge ako na.

Im so excited

I cant wait to meet you there

I dont care

Im so horny

That's ok my will is good

Yeah

Pak eto yun dati ko pang hinahanap na rock version eh, Seether pala!

Kiddie song. Super super like like. i have a cassette tape of this nun highschool pa ko. Nanenok na.

What the hell is Cock Tease?

Found out may code name sila sakin, "cocktease". Ngayon ko lang ata narinig yun. At sinabi nya sakin yun ng harap harapan. Parang beystos sa pandinig. Di ko alam kung dapat ba ko ma-offend or ma-flatter. Well, kiberbrandchoco. Flirt na kung flirt pero hanggang dun lang yun. Ayoko naman sugurin pa ko ng kabit mo noh. Pero alam ko konting landi ko pa bibigay ka na. Call me cocktease or whatever pero I dont owe you sex or anything else. Kung bibigay ka hindi ko na kasalanan yun.

Elevator

First break: Time for yosi break. Niyaya ko si Chat.

Sumakay kami ng elevator pababa ng ground floor. Dalawa lang kami. Humirit si Chat out of nowhere. Taklesa, as usual, walang preno: "Abibi, you deserve someone better. Someone who will make you happy. Alam ko he is a very nice person, parang si Namnam. Mas mabait pa nga si Namnam eh. Pero we deserve someone better".

Bumukas na ang elevator.

Nagyosi kami sa labas na parang walang nangyari.

Oasis

one of my all time fave songs, wonderwall:))

Made a meal and threw it up on sunday
I've got a lot of things to learn
Said I would and I'll be leaving one day
Before my heart starts to burn

So what's the matter with you
Sing me something new
Don't you know the cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away

Times are hard when things have got no meaning
I've found a key upon the floor
Maybe you and I will not believe in
The things we find behind the door

So what's the matter with you
Sing me something new
Don't you know the cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away

Stand by me
Nobody knows the way it's gonna be

If your leaving will you take me with you
I'm tired of talking on my phone
There is one thing I can never give you
My heart will never be your home

So what's the matter with you
Sing me something new
Don't you know the cold and wind and rain don’t know
They only seem to come and go away


The way it's gonna be, yeah
Maybe I can see, yeah
But don't you know the cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away

eto tugtog ko buong araw nun namatay aso ko si butchoy. i remember nun college lagi ako inaasar ni brussel and leo na patay na si butch. ayun natigok nga. buong araw ako umiiyak sa school hanggang pagsakay sa van pauwi. good thing meron syang apo hehe si pocholo.

A Cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say
About the things caught in my mind
As the day was dawning my plane flew away
With all the things caught in my mind
And I wanna be there when you're...
Coming down
And I wanna be there when you hit the ground
So don't go away say what you say
But say that you'll stay
Forever and a day...in the time of my life
Cos I need more time yes I need more time
Just to make things right
Damn my situation and the games I have to play
With all the things caught in my mind
Damn my education I can't find the words to say
About all the things caught in my mind
Me and you what's going on?
All we seem to know is how to show
The feelings that are wrong

Top news

Yesterday I was the happiest b!tch alive, and now I am hurting like hell there's no more tomorrow. Tinanggihan nanaman niya ko times ten to the nth power.

Dagdagan pa ng issues sa office. Top news na ang G2G namin ni Chat. Found out someone got devastated with our stat. Sabi ni Miklo nasiraan daw ng ulo yung boss niya. I didnt expect na si Glenn G yun haha. Basta ang tsismis lang sakin ng isang manager na meron "patay na patay sakin." Like like ko yung term.

Anyweyz, it was Jaynie's bday celeb kahapon. Masama talaga pag nagdadalawang isip eh. Sana di na ako tumuloy. Well, maganda at maayos naman parking ng kotse ko sa harap ng house ni Abe. Hindi naman ako masyado lasing. Keri ko ang empoy. Mga tatlong shots lang siguro si Abe. We were all happy. Tapos biglang bad news. Kala ko joke. Sabi nila naatrasan ni Abe kotse ko. Ayun. Napakalaki ng kalsada. Malayo ako sa bahay niya. Ewan ko kung bakit inabot ako ng kotse niya. Ok lang mabangga pero yung sasabihin ng magulang ko ang pinakamahirap tanggapin sa lahat.

Time to get sober.
Lasing ako. Halos isuka ko na bituka ko. Atanoso was sleeping inside the room. Hindi siya nakainom. I went in. Alam naman niya gusto ko siya ever. I told him kahit lasing ako wala akong gagawin sa kanya. Ganun din naman siya. Aubz and Chris went inside the room, too. They saw me hugging him. Lights off. Tinukso kami. Yun lang. Sinigurado ko hindi naka-lock yung door. Ayoko ng issue. Alam niya kausap ko sa text si --- Umiyak lang naman ako. Sobrang lasing ako i thought he was --- so i kissed him. Smack lang naman. Tapos nakatulog na ko. Nothing happened.

Pag gising ko wala na si Lee. Pumasok yung bday girl sa room trying to confirm yung kwento ni Aubz about something. May damit naman akong suot, hindi naka-lock yung door, pants zipped. Walang nangyari.

I received txt msgs from my parents, Abe, ---, and 1 unknown number.

Parang nagunaw mundo ko nun nabasa ko yung txt niya ---
Napraning naman ako nun nabasa ko yung 2 msgs from unknown #: "Maricel to bkt cno 2", "asan ka ba."
Not sure kung si cel yun gf ni lee. Ayoko ng kaaway sa office. Wala naman nangyari.

It's my off today. My evil twin sister said headline na ako sa office.

Dkee texted me and said "I dont like the kris aquino image on you. Over publicity na ata yan..."
Tinamaan naman yata ako dun huhu.

Coffee Talk

We talked for almost 3 hours. And I've got the nerve to ask him about her. I get jealous at times when I feel someone is already making him happy. But it's ok. I have to.

We sipped our coffee slowly and loud as we chat about our experiences. We had a guessing game. 28, 21, 23, 24 and 25 were my magic numbers. (Gotcha at 24! It can never be three in a row)

We talked. We laughed. We kissed. I still never get sick and tired of him.

I have his lighter, he had mine.....

And I will always remember that place as a magical spot for love.

Paano Pag Sarado Na Ang Pinto?

Wala akong maisip.

A. Meron naman daw bintana na pwedeng buksan.
B. Hayaan na lang na sarado, baka meron nang ibang tao.
C. Sirain na lang.
D. Hintayin na lang na may magbukas na iba, saka ka pumasok.

Madalas ata mangyari to sa bahay namin. Nasasaran ako ng pinto pag malakas hangin or may naglock ng pinto. Wala akong susi. Nasubukan ko na ng maraming beses sirain ang pinto at bintana sa galit ko. Pero one time sinubukan ko na lang maghintay na may magbukas. Ok naman. Nakapasok din. Tagal nga lang.

My Idea Of A Dream House

I want to tell you about my dream house. I've always wanted to have a minimalistic modern type of house with a combination of glass and wood. It would have 3 bedrooms, a living room, a family room, a dining room, a big kitchen, a maid's room, 4 comfort rooms, a walk-in closet, garage for 4 cars, a swimming pool, and a balcony looking over the big green garden with Japanese fountain. I want it to be eco-friendly with solar panels so I can save energy. It doesnt have to be a 2-storey house though I've always thought when I was a kid that having a stair at home means that you are rich and a spiral staircase would mean that you are richer:)

I want it to be like the houses I see on Sims3. 

Mata

My eyes on the day of my birthday.

I remember last year, walang pinagkaiba. Umiyak din ako on the day of my birthday. Kakapasok ko pa lang sa work when I found out it was Dkee’s last day. Humahagulgol ako sa pantry at di ako nakapagtrabaho. Gagu ka Dkee.

This year umiyak nanaman... mababaw na dahilan pero malalim ang pinaghuhugutan.

Hotel in Space called Galactic Suites

While browsing the internet, I found this very interesting news about a hotel in space that will launch in 2012. It's called Galactic Suites. I've read in Wikipedea that this hotel "will orbit the Earth once every 80 minutes, providing 15 day-and-night cycles every 24 hours."

I thought only astronauts can get the chance to go to space. Hindi na pala ngayon. I can't imagine myself floating in space. I wonder what it's like to live in a zero gravity. Siguro I won't ever complain any foot aching kasi di na ko maglalakad, I'll just swim through an empty space, magaling naman ako sa breaststroke and backstroke hehe.

When I was a kid, I've always dreamed of seeing Earth from afar, walking on the moon, discovering aliens in Milky Way, living on Mars alone, enter into a black hole and time warp back to my past. And I think it's no longer impossible to see all that happen.

Time space warp, ngayon din!

www.galacticsuite.com

Sa website pa lang nila feel na feel ko na. 
Try to visit their page and click all the menus. Amazing!

Fave Songs ko for the month

This Side by Nickel Creek

One day you'll see her and you'll know what I mean.
Take her or leave her she will still be the same.
She'll not try to buy you with her time.
But nothing's the same, as you will see when she's gone.

It's foreign on this side,
And I'll not leave my home again.
There's no place to hide
And I'm nothing but scared.

You dream of colors that have never been made,
You imagine songs that have never been played.
They will try to buy you and your mind.
Only the curious have something to find.

It's foreign on this side,
And the truth is a bitter friend.
But reasons few have I to go back again.

Your first dawn blinded you, left you cursing the day.
Entrance is crucial and it's not without pain.
There's no path to follow, once you're here.
You'll climb up the slide and then you'll slide down the stairs.

It's foreign on this side,
But it feels like I'm home again.
There's no place to hide
But I don't think I'm scared.
(there's no place to hide)
(there's no place to hide)
But I don't think I'm scared.
(there's no place to hide)
But I don't think I'm scared...




Apologize by One Republic

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...



Swing Life Away by Rise Against

Am I loud and clear or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine, if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winters so cold, summers over too soon
So let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow
I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
We've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
Until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine, if you show me yours first
Let's campare scars, I'll tell you wore is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away

Smack the sausage

My half brother and sister recently visited manila. Super excited ako because it's my first time to meet Gero (step). Siyempre, eto na naman ang Ang's tradition na beso-beso thing. Hindi lang isang cheek... Literal na cheek-to-cheek. Tsup-tsup, mwah mwah. I didn't know na pati sa Germany ganun din pala kahit lalaki sa lalaki. Nalaman ko lang yung thru Gero. Everytime na umuuwi sila kelangan ko i-ready ang sarili ko sa puyatan. Pero iba ngayon. Bukod sa puyatan, nosebleed pa. Gero only speaks Deutsch and French. Pero buti na lang he understands English and konting Tagalog. Barok english siya. So minsan Ate Gwen has to translate everything. I like Gero the very first time we met. Magaan loob ko sa kanya. Unang tanong ko sa kanya "nakakaintindi ka ba ng tagalog?" well nagulat ako at naintindihan naman nya. Sumagot agad ng "yeah, like pu*****na gutom na ako."
Pinakain siya ng exotic foods like balot, isaw and marami pang iba.
Btw, he's a very talented 19-year old boy. He can dance like Jabbawockeez. He dances with his cap. Galing.
He's gwapo, bad boy and chick boy. Ethel Booba even asked him to kiss her boobs and asked if she can touch his pututoy. Siyempre nagpahawak naman ang loko. When we went to Encore hinawakan pa yun wetpax niya ng lasing na lasing at nagwawalang si Bernadette Allison. Oh well, everything was so great. We went home sooo drunk almost everyday.
Super close na ata kami haha we even talked about his love life, smacking the sausage. Errrr sausage ang isa sa pinaka-main meal nila sa Germany.
Maiba naman, marami siyang natutunang bagong words like patay, panget, baho, pepe, pekpek, puke, flower, kain na, kulit-kulit nyo, bayad po, kuya para, ate (sa jollibee) pa-order ng betlog, spakolin mo betlog ko (meron kasi spa house sa kanto ng bahay nila sa Makati), etc. Even bisaya and kapampangan words pinatulan na niya.
At the same time, I learned a lot of German words din like:

No is Nein
Stupid is Dumm
Asshole is Arschlock
Shit is Scheiße
Bullshit is sheisdreck
F*ck you is Fick dich
Piggy is Schweinchen
Pussy is Muschi
Shut up is Halt den mund
I hate you is Ich hasse dich

I love you is Ich liebe dich

How long should you hold on...

Meron ako naaalala sa movie na to. And everytime na paulit ulit ko to pinapanuod naiiyak lang ako. Huhu tinamaan ata ako. Parang ginawa talaga to para sakin. Feeling ko ako na si Bea, and si John Lloyd ay si...wag na banggitin.
Hindi ko rin naman alam kung hanggang kelan dapat maghintay or mag move on. Tuwing lalayo naman ako parang kusang bumabalik pa rin ako sa nakaraan.
Baka nagpapakatanga na lang din ako…

Violent Reaction?

Bakit kaya siya nagrereact sa latest post ko eh hindi naman para sa kanya yun? Para sa akin yun. Akin. Gusto ko lang matanim sa kasuluk-sulukan ng kokote ko. Affected? Pero ayos lang. I know you still care!

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And to react like that? That is sooooo gay! No offense but wow.

Awts.

PARA SA MGA KAKABREAK LANG.

1. pag break na, break na. wag nang umasa pa. ikaw ang kawawa. arruuuyyy!

2. pag napansin mong medyo close pa rin kayo, tandaang friends lang ang tingin nun sayo.

3. pag inaasar kayong ‘muling..ibalik..ang tamis..’ tuwing magkasama – wag kang matuwa.

4. wag mo siyang saktan – pisikal, salita. hindi mabuti yan. pwedeng gumanti pero sana fair ka lumaban.

PARA SA MGA UMAASA.

1. naman! tignan mo ung number 1 sa taas. un lang ang pwedeng gawin.

2. maghanap ng iba as soon as possible. hindi na uso ang three months pahinga.

3. pag may nangyaring sweetness between the two of you. wag kang matuwa. pampalubay loob ang tawag diyan at hindi senyales ng balikan.

PARA SA MGA MAY MAHAL PERO HINDI NAMAN MAHAL.

1. hindi ka niya mahal kaya tigilan mo. mabibwiset lang un.

2. wag na wag kang magagalit pag may kasama siyang iba. tandaan: hindi kayo at wala kang karapatan.

3. wag mang-away ng gf/bf niya. one more time: walang karapatan.

4. wag mangalandakan na kayo or m.u. kunware. kapal. haha.

5. there are many fish in the sea.

AYAN.

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You are the truth, and i speak the lies. And you can see all that through my eyes.